Flowers Bloom

The beautiful Hisana and the ever loving Byakuya in one picture! *sighs* It kind of makes me think of Jae and me. I hope we will be able to sit under the cherry blossom tree in Tokyo like this! The picture is like a dream come true! Well, I kind of had to upload a nice picture, just to make up for the pictureless entry that I previously did and the fact that I haven't really updated my blog in a long time! It's so unlike me to go through days of not updating since I'm so obsessive about everything! >.< But let's not begin by ranting about my computers...well maybe I should! Move from the bad to the good :P Maybe then I'd feel somewhat better because honestly, I feel like crap

So...after messing up my own laptop by crashing it, I also managed to make viruses enter my desktop. The worse part of this is that the desktop isn't mine! Like I can still say I can buy a new laptop with my own money since I crashed it but the desktop has all the important files of my parents in it. They function like me so they don't save backups. >.<>.<) but I am so not touching that desktop ever again! (So if viruses attack it again, it can't be my fault!) But still, I kind of have a phobia against a computer period. So I'm using school computers for the rest of the semester/school year. I can't even begin to think what I'm going to do during holidays and the like! It'll be hell on earth for me...and besides, my mom has forbidden the use of her desktop/any other computer at my house period! So even if I didn't have the phobia of computers, I'd still not be able to use them....

On a brighter note, I spent quite an enjoyable weekend talking to kitsune san and Jae. They're both such nice people! And then there comes the question of Jae's ex-gf. I was very scared of her taking him away, as I've been cheated on quite a many times before that I've become scared of such things happening again. The idea is that someone as nice and perfect as Jae I know I should trust but a part of me is hesitant...I really want the image above to come true, because he is my Byakuya! I treat him as I'd treat Byakuya...as some of you I'd go very far if ever I could meet Byakuya XD But that's not the point! I hope that in all honesty, she would learn to stop before it becomes detrimental and she becomes more than just dillusional. I don't want Jae to hurt her but she's asking for it with every move that she makes...